I thought she was saying she couldnt understand how he could sleep at night, before she met him.
She was always talking in past tense about her anger at Benn and said how shocked she was when she met him that he was nothing like she expected. She was always saying i used to, or i believed or i felt. Never did i hear her use present tense.
Lets be honest Benns comments
before he knew what Gman was going to end up like were pretty poor. He certainly regrets some of the things he said deeply and they were bound to anger the McClellands family at the time. Especially "rather him than me".
People look for someone to blame Benn was Gmans familys scape goat.
Obviously Benn was never at any fault and thats a fact, i cant even say the ref was in anyway to blame, doctors at ringside should have known more, gman should have known it was going wrong, and his joke of a corner certainly should have.