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TopGun wrote:I'd like to see him come back as a contender and fight a few times a year but try and win an area title.

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

Sklar wrote:

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

Have you tried setting new sporting goals, mate? Extreme endurance training or something like that. Ironmans or whatever. Something like the http://www.marathondessables.co.uk/, for instance.

Sklar wrote:

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

Have you tried setting new sporting goals, mate? Extreme endurance training or something like that. Ironmans or whatever. Something like the http://www.marathondessables.co.uk/, for instance.

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

ste1983 wrote:

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

Be as open as you want mate, especially if it helps!

You were a very brave fighter in the ring and obviously out of it too! Takes some bloody guts to be as open and honest as you have been.

As others said I hope you can find other goals to set youself. Genuinely wish you all the best mate!

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

tear up wrote:

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.

That's not the allegedly show on the 16th is it mike.

You a achieved more than a lot of people pal look back happy get stuck in and get some fighters you've got too much time on your hands mate I was the same when walked away mate I'm down London soon watchin young Copey fight for English title at super feather think it's a Wednesday night come catch me well have a beer I'm stayin down so well have a few mate chin up your a warrior

tear up wrote:Yes think it is mate young Copey fight the baby faced smith down there looks a good fight I'll be down there from Wednesday mate hopefully for a few days depending if I get this job nearly finished mate as if I turn my back the lads will have a few days off ha ha

johnnygreaves wrote:I did go into the gym with the idea of maybe fighting on. I've had a real bad time in my mind over the last few weeks.a big part of me is willing me to turn life in.i guess boxing on would be a form of self harm.my big brother spelled a few home truths and sparring yesterday brought home the fact that its just not in me anymore. I do have the most beautiful kids and I'm determined not to go the same way as my friends the smith's and dean.people close to me tell me not to be so open but,it helps me. The mind can be a very complex thing. I've always had negative emotions. Even as a little boy. Boxing saved my life,also it has been a massive head eff.everytime people said I was a loser.it cut to the bone.its harder when I see boys I easily lived with in the ring whilst still pissed from the day before winning titles.you always think what could've been if I were dedicated. Depression is the hardest thing I've been against without a doubt.that said I was good at my job and reaching my goal was massive.anything else would ruin that.didnt envisage just being forgotten but life always just moves on!i will get my act together.i get knocked down.but I will get up again.